On this Tuesday night, on the back of my weekly call with the Catbirds’ business manager, I’m pondering the overlap between business and dreams. “If you build it they will come” isn’t always a sound marketing strategy, but it’s the only one worth leaning on when you’re laying the foundation. This track by Voxtrot looks at “the queer life” versus “the real life;” the former a foray into fancy and unbridled wandering, and the latter a grounded, legitimized, and accepted facade. The queer life looms behind the real life, like the subconscious, in its immeasurable way, driving the world of the conscious. What we are is what we know and what we can see. But what drives us is what we want to be.
I’m in the process of releasing music into the world. If the Census Bureau came knocking at my door, I would be classified as an ordinary person. But in my queer life, I’m extraordinary. The music that I’ve found is certainly queer, and it too is extraordinary, in ways that are beyond my real life. For sure.
How tied we are to the real life, to the three-dimensional walls that surround us in the waking world. Think of when you’re half asleep, dreaming and darting from scene to scene, and the possibilities that are before you. Think of the real human emotions and spiritual places you go to. Think of the creativity in that hypnogogic state. Imagine if you could start there, and build a bridge into the “real life” world.
I am currently staring into obscurity, with thirty-odd years of lethargy anchoring me to a real life that oppresses me with its dullness and limited scope. I have created this world, acting as a willing accomplice to the law of entropy. There is another world, where programming bugs, expiring domains, flagging inspiration, otherwise-engaged friends, distractions, and pitfalls are all superseded by vision. This vision – it doesn’t ever intersect fully with the real life, but it draws the real life toward it. It drags it further along. It’s a dream, and it’s the only sound basis for making your way in the real life. You can’t wait for it. You have to walk toward it, never reaching it, but moving.
Voxtrot: The Dream Lives Of Ordinary People