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Abdul Raheim

The South Baltimore Learning Center stands empty tonight.

The South Baltimore Learning Center stands empty tonight.

Last night Abdul Raheim passed away in his sleep. I had known him since April of this year, when I began serving as a classroom assistant with the South Baltimore Learning Center. Together, we were trying to help young adults get their high school diploma. He was “Mr. Raheim” to his students (“learners” as we call them), and simply “Raheim” to everyone else. When greeting Raheim, you would say “How are you today?” Invariably, he would say, “I’m blessed.”

I said we were helping people get their high school diploma. But that’s an incomplete assessment. As Raheim always stressed, we were doing more than that. We were trying to help people develop critical thinking skills, and to slough off the weights that had irrationally hindered their lives. We were trying to help them become whole.

Raheim brought a holistic approach to his teaching. A math problem would often lead into a discussion about self esteem and the inner child. More than anything, he wanted to see his learners blossom and become the people they were meant to be. He worked tirelessly at homeless shelters throughout the city, and in his “off hours” he would teach classes. He often felt like he was pushing on the ocean. He often lamented that his people, African-Americans, were not becoming all they could become. Yet each day he would get up and do his part.

I have little to no inspirational wisdom to impart right now. Yet I feel it’s important to tap into the core of the idealism that leads us as individuals to get up and do our part. All I have is Marvin Gaye’s “Save The Children.” Raheim, this song was given to me this evening to help me carry on. It’s the basic truth that led you to keep trying: the belief that in the face of a world that’s “destined to die,” no matter what evidence stacks up, that it’s wrong to despair, and it’s right to make efforts to “save the babies.” Those babies can be infants, they can be high school dropouts, they can be 50-year old men and women. Healing the inner child. I know lives were affected by your presence on this earth. Let me then follow your example and save the babies, and let me consider myself blessed.

I will keep reaching out to the members of your class, offering my help with tutoring this summer and whatever else comes this fall. Life will go on down here. Thank you for all you did. I miss you already.

Marvin Gaye: Save The Children

Union of the Snake

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The song is supposedly about the intersection between the conscious and the subconscious, with the latter gaining a surprise advantage with a late surge. When it was written, Duran Duran had already achieved worldwide fame beyond any reasonable human necessity. I was late to the party (see last post), and it wasn’t until the band had plunged into an eddy of drugs and glamour that I caught on. I only heard what was played over the small town radio station on the school bus on the way to school. I had never seen the videos. I had never read the tabloids. It was only the music for me.

When “The Reflex” hit, it transformed my summer. When “The Wild Boys” hit, I made my way to the record store. It was my first ever purchase. I bought three cassettes: Rio, Arena, and Seven and the Ragged Tiger. Seven especially was what I was after. I experienced my first thrill of ownership, and the sanctity of the package. I caressed that cassette J-card and memorized its folds. I drank in the smell of the plastic and cherished the nuances of blank tape at the end of side two and the series of high-pitched tones announcing the Dolby XDR (Expanded Dynamic Range). It was the same thrill Morrissey must have had when he bought his first record (a Sandie Shaw 7″ perhaps?). But this was all my own.

I’m too embarrassed to center this post around those first few months, because I didn’t know what I was listening to, and my tastes were crude. I actually liked a lot of the live Arena versions of the songs better than the originals. My interest grew, and naturally I sought out others who shared the fever. I started hanging out with a few girls at my school, Betsy, Heidi and Robin, all of whom sported badges, t-shirts, and suitably dyed locks. They introduced me to teen mags, lyric books, rumour and gossip. I was giddy, yet at the same time I felt uneasy. This wasn’t the other world I had heard in the music. This was pedestrian.

My subconscious had been tapped into, and I was looking for a cryptic rendering of what that meant. What I got was stories of screaming girls, wrecked cars, and yacht races. Success fell upon the members of Duran Duran before they ever had a chance to grow up. Under the direction (in my opinion) of the goal-oriented Nick Rhodes, the group dedicated itself to excellence in both musicianship and fashion. The fashion part has stumped many in the audience. Hordes of zombies took to it like moths to a flame, while anyone fancying themselves a “thinker” (members of the critical establishment especially) was self-righteous in indignation. What both groups missed was the music.

The music is textured, colorful and evocative. Evocative of lens flare, dark chambers, strobe-lit back rooms in the mind. Ennui 1980s style. I didn’t like to acknowledge it at the time, but the truth was the lads were flush with success, unprepared, cramming in as many shags and lines of coke as they could fit in a single sitting. I think they knew fame was fleeting. I think they lived in denial. I think they forged ahead, and I think they tried to find that one single moment when the belief that it wouldn’t end overshadowed the essential human dilemma of mortality.

Duran Duran recorded the demo for “Union of the Snake” in the south of France, where they rented a hideously huge mansion and partied nightly in their efforts to follow up their last album (still regarded as their best), Rio. At this point they were preposterous individuals. At least Rick Wakeman’s visions of world tours on ice were routed in noble intentions of serious achievement; Duran Duran on the other hand wanted spectacle for the sheer sake of having said they could. They flew in a real tiger for the album’s photo sessions, but the smoke bombs spooked it too much and it wouldn’t pose properly.

All the same, they were human beings, fallible and gauche. A sense of hysteria was setting in, as the human beings realized they couldn’t live as gods forever. Seven and the Ragged Tiger is an insane album, full of torrid dreams and mad screams. “There’s a fine line drawing my senses together and I think it’s about to break.” Or from another song: “Shackled and raised for a shining crowd / They want you to speak but the music is louder than all of their roar / And the heat of the planet’s core.” Yegads, why bring the flippin’ planet into it? Also from the same song (“Shadows On Your Side”): “Scandal in white on a tangled vine / With everybody to say that you’re having the time of your life / When your life is on the slide.”

Having experienced only the ascent, Simon Le Bon knew instinctively that privately, a “slide” is inevitable. The “union of the snake” was a creepy crawly portending slide that threatened to bring the whole party crashing down. The snake lived in the back corners of the mind, where Simon and the lads had tucked away that knowledge of mortality. “Give me strength, at least give me a light / Give me anything, even sympathy,” Simon’s subconscious mind pleaded.

I was young, too, when I first heard these songs. I didn’t understand the knowledge of death then and I understand it only slightly better now. But Duran Duran’s music, in spite of the humans behind it, served for me as a channel to the unknowable networks of the subconscious and the fine line that hovers over us all.

Duran Duran: Union Of The Snake
Duran Duran: Secret Oktober (Original B-side)
Duran Duran: Union Of The Snake (The Monkey Mix)

New Moon On Monday

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Those of you who know me knew this was coming eventually. Hopefully you’ve prepared yourselves for it. I don’t jump into this sort of thing halfway, either. This is a full blown tribute to my first, and most enduring, favorite band: Duran Duran.

They’re supposed to be a “guilty pleasure” or whatever, but they’re the reason I’m writing about music today.

As a kid, I was always running around the playground, breaking my glasses and losing my gloves; I wasn’t the usual “sit still and ponder” type of individual that I am today. But I had caught the wave of the power of music before this, in glimpses. I’ll lay my low cards on the table here: I remember feeling a pang when the airwaves announced we were “reunited and it feels so good.” Another pang with the declaration: “Hector believe we are magic” (a misheard lyric from Olivia Newton-John). And I was knocked out by that bright, funhouse organ in “Funky Town;” Yes! please take me there! My ears were unsophisticated, but each new sound created a parallel world that I knew I would one day explore.

Fast-forward to 1983, at Magic River Skateland, and the large video screen. I had ogled Sheena Easton (where can I board this “morning train?”) and softened half-heartedly to Boy George, but nothing prepared me for Simon LeBon’s wail in “New Moon On Monday.” So much about it drew me through a wormhole, far from the small town I lived in. All I remember are shadowy scenes and lots of torches waving, but the visual was never the point for me. It was the unseen visual that came through the music. This wasn’t the usual romp through fast times America, burgers and fries. This was something other. It felt vaguely evil to me, like the Occult, and it didn’t happen on the literal plane. On another channel was Billy Joel, working at some freaking car wash or other, taking the baton from the prosaic brightness of “Crocodile Rock,” chasing after an uptown girl. On my channel was something I had never seen before.

Looking back, I can’t quite pin down the reason why this particular tune did it for me, as there were plenty of New Wave oddities and faux-Gothic bug-eyed absurdities to choose from during the time. But here is where it sunk in, and perhaps the irresistible melody placed on top of the bizarre scene was what pulled me in. Duran Duran knew how to write a chorus. Their verses (and this song is a perfect example) often ramble, keeping you in a mood, slightly off balance, setting up the chorus. Then it’s Simon at the top of his range, whining and chirping about satellites and lizards and stuff that has absolutely no earthly reference point. The lyrics are naff, but to a young, surprised mind, they served their purpose.

I was taken in by that melody and the sound of that whine. I was taken in by the guitar (or is it a keyboard, I never can tell during the 80s…) arpeggio during that chorus, and the elevation of the suspended fourth made me soar, long before I knew the term. And the lads, for all their insistence on surface matters, could approach their music with depth and even subtlety. During the instrumental bridge (featuring “thunder” sounds courtesy of Nick Rhodes crumpling newspaper) and in the final chorus fade, Roger Taylor hits his snare just a sixteenth note earlier than the usual downbeat. It took me years to actually hear that was what was happening. It makes you lurch slightly, disorienting the ear.

“New Moon On Monday” was then, and is now, considered one of the group’s minor singles, and there are much better examples to illustrate why Duran Duran are an underappreciated talent (don’t worry, I’ll get to those later). But it came to me at the right time in my life, caught my ear, and a few months later led me to purchase my first album and started me on a path that eventually led here to Subanimal Sounds…

Duran Duran: New Moon On Monday
Duran Duran: Tiger Tiger (Original B-side)
Duran Duran: New Moon On Monday (Catbirdman Remix)

Sleep; Part 1

brian1969Sleep thought/association #1 (first in a nightly series), regarding Brian coasting through his day: Gentle soul, poking his head out the door, he wrote slices of his life. Priceless and small. There in the park at 10:30, when the sprinklers went on, and Brian wrote it down. He gave directions to his house in another song. Meanwhile Dad sold the rights to all the old hits. We’ve lost that commercial edge. Mike and I argued over Redwood, he was mad. Deep and wide! Then Brian said with the voice of a bird, “my magic transistor’s been blowing my mind.” Some group was playing a musical song just before I saw a sign and turned left (it’s a bumpy one). Brian came down in his pajamas and later I read it in a book how he gave up after SMiLE. Hang on to your ego music. I wrote a number down, but I lost it so. Zzzz.

The Beach Boys: I Went To Sleep

Summer Songs

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Here are some summer songs to chronicle the warm night on my back deck as I contemplate blogging, creating, and living under the bright sun.

Grandaddy: Summer Here Kids

Grandaddy’s take on summer is an understandable bristling against the commercialism of the boardwalks and beach spots, compelling us to stay at home and listen to our favorite records. OK, I can see that, to a point, but I do want to get out there with like-minded celebrators. While I’m home, though, it’s not a bad idea to put on some records…

Pedro The Lion: Indian Summer

Moving gently from the cyncial starting point, we begin with Pedro The Lion’s nod to “ultra-violet rays” spreading over a bleak, commercial suburbia bloated with “corporate cum.” The announcement that “it will never rain again” is classic indie-rock sardonicism. Well, whatever, I can’t really deny the truthfulness herein. But I’m still in search of some light-hearted fun…

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Belle & Sebastian: I Know Where The Summer Goes

Stuart Murdoch takes us into lighter territory, if not altogether fun, but he helps us reconcile the humid, laconic wistfulness with the unspoken hopes of triumph. “The boy came from nowhere to steal the hearts from lassies in the lavvies of the club tonight.” What could be a more satisfying Cinderella story than that?

Throwing Muses: Summer St.

Let me state right off that, as usual, I’m not entirely sure what Kristin Hersh is on about here, but the feeling is right. In the haze of summer, the body is lonesome, and yet not. This, I think, is a song of solitary, gentle hope. I will take the exhortation to “drink to the sun” literally.

Animal Collective: Summertime Clothes

Ah, this is getting closer. Sweat everywhere. Mosquitos too, probably. And then the call of a summer girl. “I want to walk around with you.” Yes, let’s.

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The Beach Boys: All Summer Long

Could I have ended this post with any other song? Absolutely not. It starts and ends with Brian Wilson’s majestic celebration.

Work Hard / Play Hard

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An ex-coworker of mine had a sign on his cubicle wall: “A good song can make you late for work. A great song can make you quit.” Most of us struggle with the work/life balance, and few of us get it right. Rock and roll is predictably uninsightful when it comes to this subject, because most players in this game have done just that all their lives: played. Look at Morrissey: he was essentially a blogger before blogs existed, and next thing he knew he hooked up with Johnny Marr and the rest is history. By the time the Smiths covered “Work is a Four-Letter Word,” Morrissey had already given us odes to David Brent-like bosses from hell who wrote “bloody awful poetry,” musings on how miserable he was after he found a job, and statements like “I wouldn’t bother” [going to work]. Well, sod him. What does he know?

And what does Paul Westerberg know, either? He pulled his bandmates out of school to gig with the ‘Mats. Now, I’m sure his work ethic was as bad as this demo claims:
The Replacements: Bad Worker (Paul Westerberg home demo)

But the point is these are not real people. They’re rock stars. So what of the rest of us?

Well, we’re left with a balancing act. Some of us merge work with play. Others punch our cards to fuel a hobby. Tonight I worked late, and now I’m blogging late, and I’ll be up early again tomorrow. The trick is to engage in both, to become vested in both. If you just punch a card, heaven knows you’ll be miserable. If you work so hard that you have no play to come home to, then not even rock and roll can save you.
Palace Music: Work Hard / Play Hard

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The dedication, then, goes out to another ex-coworker, a regular visitor to this blog, Dave Crozier. I salute him for finding the right balance and carving out his own home studio (thanks for all the demos over the years, Dave!), and for taking weeks off here and there to create. This particular track was the result of one such sabbatical, back when he was advising me in project management for direct mail campaigns. He poured all of himself into both pursuits, took each seriously, and kept each in perspective. He has a wall full of guitars, real beauties, and they speak to him in primordial overtones. He is a disciple of the mystical Eighth Note Pulse. He thrives on the buzz and the growl. He just simply loves guitars. He also puts in a hard day’s work and takes pleasure from it. Here’s Dave Crozier’s heavy creation:
Dave Crozier: Heavy Creation

Lee Mavers Sighting

Lee Mavers: The Ultimate Big Black Bear

Photos: Jonathan Perry

Catbirdman’s ultimate hero, Lee Mavers, appears to have poked his head out his door – Open the Door! – this past May, and photographer Jonathan Perry was there to take some pictures. In lieu of new music, then, we have a reminder of what might have been, again…

Last I heard, Lee was still trying to get his guitar in tune. It hasn’t yet reached perfect dogstar velocity, or whatever it is he calls it when he gets the universe in tune. Flying in the face of chaos theory, Lee put out some perfect pop gems in the late ’80s, though if he had his way none of them would have come out. They weren’t perfect enough. As if anyone could pick the bones out of “There She Goes.”

It seems fitting to litter this post with scraps. Here’s a song that Lee left unfinished, called “I Am The Key.” It falls in the tradition of those Mavers songs where a cosmic concern is personified by the transcendent power of a singer in a rock and roll band. “I am the toiler of the old ship-slave.” “I’m in everybody / everybody’s in me.” “I am the key.” “Man, I’m only Human.” And so on. Spoon saw fit to cover this song, and while it doesn’t stray far from the patchy blueprint of the original, it’s a nice rarity.

The La’s: I Am The Key (Tim Grundy Key 103 Session)
Spoon: I Am The Key

leemavers01Here’s another taste of what a second La’s album might have sounded like: a 1989 rehearsal of a song called “Tears In The Rain.” Contrast it with the 1986 demo version and you can see how Mavers reinvented it almost from scratch. Neither version is up to par sonically, but then nothing is, in the mind of Lee Mavers.

The La’s: Tears In The Rain (1989 Rehearsal)
The La’s: Tears In The Rain (1986 Rehearsal)

leemavers02Finally, to do Mr. Mavers some justice, here’s a song that actually made it onto the airwaves of the public, into the ears of the masses, all stamped with a barcode and everything. I bought mine over the counter. It’s one of the tracks that producer Steve Lillywhite got right all those years ago, on the La’s self-titled album with the bewildering eyeball on the front. Enjoy now the irresistable shuffle and the inspirational, emancipational lyric of “Liberty Ship.”

The La’s: Liberty Ship

Come To Jesus

onewayA meditation on survival. Come to Jesus or perish. Work like your job depends on it. Become whole.

Inspiring speeches often teeter on the edge of hell and brimstone. Why is that? Why is there not a place for each of us? Why are the homeless without homes? Why are the homeful suspicious? Is it really a zero sum game?

For today, I have a place. Come tomorrow, will my lifeboat sink below the waters?

GusGus: Is Jesus Your Pal?

Alright, so we had the “Come to Jesus” meeting at work today. Times are tough. I know it’s just an expression, “come to Jesus.” But what does that entail? Within the religious tradition I was brought up in, it means (I think) to search within your best parts, looking for power and strength (a reflection of the omnipotent), for wisdom and alertness (a reflection of the omniscient), for shrewdness and awareness (a reflection of the omnipresence), and for weakness (a reflection of the incarnated body of Christ). It means finding these pieces, and bringing them to God in humility, asking for wholeness and growth. It then means to start living like you mean it.

The Velvet Underground: Jesus

But I’m not here to talk about religion. I’m here to share my experiences with a soundtrack. My experience today, at work, in life, was much the same as usual: faking my way through an uncertain world, intermittently grabbing hold of a real thing or other, knowing it, naming it, sharing it. You have to take it seriously, but not too seriously. We are not yet whole, so be content. We can always get closer, so never be content. “Long time between now and my death. I gotta have my fun, so I’ve chosen what’s best.”

Spiritualized: Walking With Jesus
The Byrds:
Jesus Is Just Alright

I can do this job. “I know I’ve done wrong, but I’m heaven on Earth / Know I’ve done wrong, but I could have done You worse.” The job description at times feels overwhelming, at times feels impenetrable. But I can do this job, I know it. But I must bring my whole self to work. I must work like I know how. Like I’ve been taught. I must come to Jesus, within the sound of my confusion. Others will follow.

The Soft Pack: Walking With Jesus

Dead Souls

Photo: Nicole Tori

Photo: Nicole Tori

I once wrote a lyric: “I’m in love with something, but I don’t know what. Make it all come out. Make it not there.”

I have never killed myself nor have I come close. But I have been dogged by the pain of life’s background noise. Tape hiss everywhere. And sometimes I’ve felt like maybe there was a solitary, pinched (like an ’80s gated snare drum) prophetic voice. But I couldn’t transcribe it word-for-word.

Ian Curtis did kill himself. He wrote it much bolder: “Someone take these dreams away / that point me to another day … They keep calling me!”

I recently met a new friend who reminded me of how life is when you’re engulfed in the torrent of dead souls that swirl all around our own literal, sense-able plane. This happens when you become obsessed with an anguished thought. The most usual subject is an unattainable love. Being obsessed with wanting what you can’t have. Sexual desire and flesh-and-bone faces are only approximations for the real obsession and the supreme disappointment we have: we can’t hear the voices from the other side. The dead souls. We can’t die and come back. We can’t live our lives completely; we can’t benefit from the wisdom that death would bring.

Sometimes we hear the residual strains of ghosts and spirit. I actually believe that. It happens to artists. Thank God I’m only a small artist. Like Lee Mavers said, “Thank God for this feelin’ / Oh my Lord, I can’t take no more.”

Joy Division: Dead Souls

Post-Hibernation Postings

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The Big Black Bear just woke up from a 5-hour Sunday nap. Such an unplanned hibernation leaves one a bit woozy feeling. I’m just getting the muscles working again, so I will be posting some random songs without a central theme, other than a vague tendency to post in threes.

First, some samples of three upcoming releases, starting with one from the Grizzly Bear. No relation to the Big Black Bear. The poor Grizzlies have seen their new album leak all over the internet. Veckatimest is out May 26, and I urge everyone to buy it if you like this sampler. I’m excited about it, and from what I’ve heard, it seems that the songwriting and production bears some similarities to the Department of Eagles side project. Following that is a track from the upcoming Camera Obscura album My Maudlin Career (April 13). I’m ready to be heartbroken. Finally there’s one from the upcoming Pet Shop Boys’ album Yes (March 23). Judging by this track and “Love, Etc.,” it promises to be a good one.
Grizzly Bear:
Two Weeks
Camera Obscura:
French Navy

Pet Shop Boys: Did You See Me Coming?

And now, three for Crozier, all from recent or upcoming singles. The first one (to be released March 31), from the Crystal Stilts, that has stuck itself on repeat in my head; hope you like it too. Their drummer, incidentally, used to play with the Vivian Girls, and we’ll be seeing them soon; I’ve posted the a-side to a September 2008 single. Also on that same bill is Ariel Pink’s Haunted Graffiti, so I did a bit of research on them. Weird stuff that goes under the name of freak folk. This track is from a December 2008 single. Sounds like a warped version of a song that might have  appeared on the complimentary 8-track mix tape that came with my parents’ Oldsmobile back in the late 70s.
Crystal Stilts: Love Is A Wave
The Vivian Girls: I Can’t Stay
Ariel Pink’s Haunted Graffiti: Can’t Hear My Eyes

And finally, three of my favorites from the world of hip hop; all of these songs are exactly three minutes long.
The Cool Kids: What Up Man
Dangerdoom: Korn Dogs
Quasimoto: Green Power